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Thursday, 12 June 2008

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Lost
By Michael Bublé
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So, I've been comtemplating so many different things lately. About life, love, relationships, time apart, being alone, all of that stuff. I had a conversation with one of my friends from college and with just a few sentences, he summed up how things are when he's alone. He believes that it doesn't matter whether he's alone or not, as long as there is someone there at the end of it all. Someone to talk to about the things you do alone because they mean more in that sense, someone you really care about.
And lately, I've been feeling that being alone kinda sucks, because I want people to be around to talk to or just to keep me company. But what if I never got alone time? Never got time to myself to figure out who I am without people, or just to have quiet time. I can't really stand being with a ton of people at one time anyway...it always makes me a bit intimidated? Yea...maybe because I was a shy kid and couldn't be with too many people I wasn't used to being around.
And on that note, what about relationships? What if the two people never had time apart? Didn't have a life outside of the one that they made with each other...what if you suddenly had to spend a couple of months without them. What would you do? How would you transition? I think it's important for people to have some distance in their relationships, because without that, who are you outside of that relationship? I hope people know who they are without the other person...and know what their lives are without him/her. It probably makes it easier to transition from seeing them everyday to not at all.
Basically...I guess alone time isn't bad. As long as you're not lonely in the end...
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Friday, 20 August 2004

yesterday:sophomore orientation was from 9-11. n suzie was supposed to pick me up and it took a long time. but yea. when we got there, it was pretty confusing. jenny was soo stressed out and stuff because they didn't give her papers in the mail. man i don't like my picture on my id, it sucks. well anyways when we were in the bank waiting to buy stuff like yearbooks, anna and suzie were talking about a music in the park thing with three days grace! that band rocks. i wanted to go to and it was later on today. after orientation me suzie rachel and janelle went to annas house and decided what we were going to do. my cousin said she wanted to go to the mall so i asked her if she could take us there and then take us downtown for music in the park. anna started feeling sick and her dad didn't let her anyways so she ended up staying home. after the mall we went downtown and ate at johnny rockets. the guy who worked there gave us fries for free(i think) and made a smiley face out of the ketchup haha. we weren't really sure if he did that for everyone but oh well. then we walked over to music in the park and there was hella people. we got autographs from two of the guys from life with jonas. i got my autographs from anthony and chris on a dollar bill lol. the drummer(chris) from life with jonas was so nice. haha he said that rachel was the name of a bagel at a bagel place he worked at. he and this guy selling stuff for life with jonas kept telling janelle stuff to tell to the other, it was like this inside joke thing. she was like their messenger. haha. then chris gave janelle a dollar to buy life with jonas's cd if she would request their song on 104.9. that was pretty cool. too bad we didn't get to see them perform though. then we walked around for a while just to see what was around and then we went to adobe, to get some water and soda and stuff. we were all walking in there like it was nothing. lol. then we went back to music in the park and apollo sunshine was performing. i didn't really know the songs except for one. then when three days grace came on, it was so fricking crazy. there were like people pushing and everything. it was still fun though. there were like two mosh pits going on! people were getting thrown in the air and stuff. haha it was so crazy but it was cool. i got to hear three days grace perform just like you and some other songs. we left a little early because suzie had to be home. that was a great experience to be at a rock concert thing. haha. first concert i've ever been to. it was hella fun. whew i was tired after though. well that was all for yesterday and today...nothing happened so theres nothing really to write about.

-kay-

Thursday, 12 August 2004

hey yall..havent written in here for a while. nothing has really been happening. i went to valleyfair like 2 weeks ago but i kinda got lost kuz it was big n i havent been around the whole place yet. i dint go shoppin much kuz i coodnt find where evrythn was(bad sense of direction) lol. then on august 6, me kat jenny and lynn celebrated dieps b-day with her. it was pretty fun. me kat n diep were waitin fo lynn n jenny so we went to ross n jus hung out fo a while since it was the closest place to sizzler. then wen jenny n lynn came we walkd ovr to sizzler. lynn n stuff kept askin fo shrimp kuz they ordered this dish that was all u can eat shrimp. it was funny lol. aftr that jenny had to leave and we went ovr to coffee lovers. diep kept messin up the name. she was like lover coffee n coffee mate lol. at coffee lovers we got sum drinks(different kinds of mocha), lynn got a piece of cake n we just took pix n hung out n talked. after that my mom kame and took them home. it was like a party in my car kuz lynn was like dancin lol. wen she left it was hecka quiet in the car. thats about all. i been readin great expectations more lately n i think i cood finish it 2nite, hopefully. i can't wait to get it ovr with. well thats about it.

-kay-

Sunday, 25 July 2004

hmm..yesterday. interesting day. i woke up at around 11 n i looked on my cellphone n abel had been tryin 2 wake me up by callin a whole bunch of times..so i calld him back n he told me he was gona come see me i took a while to get ready so he kinda had to wait a while lol. when i went over to the front of my neighborhood we decided to go watch catwoman..so i went back to my house to get money and this incident happened..but i don't really want to talk about it right now. after the incident..we had to wait like an hour for the movie to start and we saw tomy andrew long and antons bro. i saw this other guy too..n i thot he went to shirakawa so i askd him n he was like uh no..it was so embarassin then i realized he prolly went on the same bus as me in 8th grade n went to sylvandale! catwoman..was arrite i mean it wasnt like but it was okay lol. after the movie we talked for a while and then i had to go home kuz i thought my mom wanted us to go somewhere but she ended up taking a nap longer than i thought. today...i woke up late like always and i watched tv and fixed my xanga..but i duno wut kinda pix n stuff i wana put in..a lil help? hehe. arite thats all fo today.. *kay*

Friday, 23 July 2004

friday july 16: had to pack up to go 2 los angeles with my cousin her friend and my brother. we left at like 7 or 8 at nite n didn't get there til 1 or 2 kuz we stopped by the gas stations alot n stuff. gosh it took forever. i was trying to read great expectations for my summer reading but it got really boring so i didn't hehe.

saturday july 17: we went to universal studios for the wholee day. it was so hot and tiring, but fun. i went on a few rides..but not many kuz there werent really any. lol. i saw this spiderman musical thing n shrek 4d. it was soo weird in the shrek thing kuz donkey sneezed n like we got squirted with water like he really sneezed on us lol. but yea anyways..after universal studios we went to this place with a whole bunch of stores n food n stuff. i think it was called city walk. we stayed there til like 12 at night and went back to the hotel. i fell asleep right away..long day!

sunday july 18: my cousin her friend me n my brother went to this one place and saw the kodak theater and this chinese theater. i saw some of the stars on the sidewalk too. i don't know most of those actors but i remember seeing nicole kidman's star thingie. lol. after..we went to all these shops and went to eat somewhere. we had to start going home after that! i thot that sucked..i wanted to stay there longer but oh well. from sunday-tues or wed. me n my brother slept over at my cousins. we didn't really do much over there but yea.

yesterday: me my mom n brother went to go pick up my grama n grampa from SFO kuz yea, they were in the philippines. it was soo hott yesterday!! we went to costco too..n i said hi to who i thought was dennis' lil brother charlie..it was embarassing lol. thats pretti much what i did.

today: hmm...i woke up really late! around 1:45pm..i gota start gettin up earlier..oOoii. I REALLY WANT TO GO TO THE BEACH.